A New Life For Me

So it is official...I am a Bomgaars!!!  I hadn't changed my name yet and I finally decided it was time to make it official.  You see, I found out that there was a mistake on my birth certificate and my name as I had known it for 20+ years was not my name.  My first name is supposed to be Ana Maria (no middle name) and I found out it really is Ana (middle name Maria).  It really doesn't seem like a big deal, but when you have been telling everyone for so many years that your name is Ana Maria-no middle name, not Ann Marie, not Ana Marie, not Ann Maria or any other combination you can think of...it is a little sad to know that your name is not your name.  Now that I have changed my name, I finally had to change everything over to Ana (middle name Maria).  To be honest...it was kind of a sad day.  I can change my name legally back to what it is supposed to be, but I would have to spend $300-$400 to do that and I don't want to spend that kind of money just for that.  So, no I am officially Ana Bomgaars and I have a middle name.  I am very happy to be a Bomgaars, but I wish I was still Ana Maria!!!

Another change is that I have been kind of going through "Mommy Blues" which I hear is somewhat common.  I am very excited about Indy's arrival, but I am scared of how our lives are going to change and how we will all deal with it.  I can't believe she will be here in 3 short months and I somehow feel not ready.  You think I would have had enough time to get used to the idea, but I am still scared.  On top of that I am feeling "not so cute" right now since I feel as big as a house, my clothes don't fit, and my chest is enormous which doesn't help the blues I already have.  I am sure I am not the only mommy to feel this way, but it is so real to me right now and sometime I think I will never feel normal again!!! 

Even through all of this, after all is said and done, when I feel Indy thump inside my tummy and hear Rocky say "I love you monkey" I remember why I go through all of this.  They are the reason I keep going and push through the hard times.   This too shall pass.